I'm so disappointed in myself right now that it's making my stomach turn. I didn't blog at all during the month of April, and I have managed to pack 6 pounds back on since the last time I posted. An ugly blue 140 glows and glares back up at me on my dusty scale right now, and my clothes are starting to get snug again.
I didn't even get to blog for my one year anniversary of this journey! April 25th was the year mark since I began this blog, and I intended to be in a completely different place. Alas...there is no use in dwelling upon the "shouldda, couldda, woulddas."
I could dish out all the excuses in the world. Yes, March and April WERE ridiculously busy for me, and I could have done some short interval workouts, but I didn't. I should have made better eating decisions during the past several weeks, but I didn't. I only biked about 4 times since the last time I blogged, and otherwise, I had to work really hard on other things...
I let the success of my weight loss from before get to my head, and now I'm paying for it because I slacked off too much.
March, April, and the newness of May have been full of so many glorious things such as two baby showers for my dear friends Nicole and Alisa, Easter, my dad's birthday dinner, and a fantastic conference that I attended in Austin last week thanks to work just to name a few. We all know what glorious things mean though, right? They mean too much food and too much time in front of the computer planning, and in my case as a graphic designer, work, work, working by sitting on my ass in front of said computer.
|Easter = Food|
|Auntie Beth's Birthday = Food|
|Nicole's baby shower = Food|
|Alisa's baby shower = Lots of planning + Food|
|Dad's birthday dinner = Food|
|Trip to Austin for conference &|
to visit family = LOTS of AUSTIN food
(most of it free, which didn't help!)
|Planning a series of 3 huge retirement parties for my |
college art history professor = Stress AND Food
(Totally beyond worth it, though)
I can feel a significant difference from how I felt while I was hitting Insanity hard. Now that I haven't been exercising regularly, I feel sluggish, I have barely any energy, and I can even tell that my moods are pretty blah and my patience is low.
I don't want to feel like this anymore. I've got to regroup and get my bum back in gear. I'm just angry at myself for slipping this much. I knew I was going to slip a little because of the insane amount of activities I've had to deal with over the past several weeks, and I was mentally prepared for that, but I never ever thought I'd be in the 140 range again. That's how quickly things can get out of control. I haven't been taking care of myself, and I'm paying the icky, fatigued, bloated price.
Time to pick myself up, dust myself off, and get back to it, guys. I'm back, but I'll need some support and encouragement, please! I just need a little push to get my self-motivation gears going again!