Day 481: MUST. STOP. FAILING.

Gah, I've been so terrible over the past few weeks since I got back from San Francisco. I haven't been working out, I've been eating JUNK, and I haven't been sleeping enough.

Needless to say, the pounds are creeping back on, and my gut is growing. Today is the first time I've worked out since umm.... I can't even remember when!! Isn't that TERRIBLE!? I'm really trying not to dwell on it, but I can't help but feel like a failure and a hypocrite for letting myself slip after all the hard work I put in just months ago.

I feel disgusting. I've been carb loading, sitting on my ass, and staying up way too late. I've had a couple of freelance projects pop up since my vacation, so I've had to work for hours after work, which meant no post work exercising, and lots of "convenient" food. Again, I feel disgusting.

Now that I've finished 2 of the 3 projects, things are slowing down a bit, so I was able to actually make time to exercise tonight. I HAVE LOST SO MUCH PROGRESS. I was extremely sluggish during a workout that was barely ANYTHING to me just months ago.

I just can't get motivated lately, and I don't know why.

Blah, I have to put all the music together for choir practice tomorrow night... I'm hoping I get out of this freaking slump soon.

On a happier note, here are some photos from San Francisco.... There were BILLIONS more amazing photos, but it'd take FOREVER to put them all here!

After our first dinner in SF at Mel's Drive-In 

Nick at his school's headquarters

Me, Nick, Drew, Joel, Josiah, Jenny, Ivonne, & Fabio at
Industrial Light & Magic/Lucas Films before we got
to go on a tour thanks to Jenny!

Nick on stage at his graduation with 2 of the 3 founders of
AnimationMentor.com (Shawn Kelly & Bobby Beck)

Me at Hawk Hill. What a BEAUTIFUL view
despite the fog! If I lived around this kind of
scenery, I'd be in the best shape ever!
Thanks to Joel for snapping this! :)

Another part of Hawk Hill. Big thanks to David
for snapping this shot!

We climbed up this, the most crooked street in the world,
Lombard Street! It was a HUUUGE hill!

WHEW, we made it!
David, Beau & Cameron (Yes, twins!), Ivonne, Nick, & me

Also, here are some pics from this past weekend's smorgasbord for my mom and my aunt's birthdays:

Ena, my Goddaughter, chowing down
on one of the many fattening and delicious
treats we had this weekend...

I did the lettering for their cake!

My aunt & my mom
72 and 63 years young!
Don't they look great!?

My parents and me on Sunday during birthday lunch.

All these happy times = too much good food. Time to work it off and get my discipline back.